What a week it’s been.  My eating was a little better than last week but I’m conceding I probably won’t take control of it until the holidays are over.  The older daughter made latkes and will likely do so again, a couple of clients sent us candy for Christmas, and I expect at least a couple of vendors will do the same this week.  I’m pretty good at avoiding temptation but when dark chocolate is just sitting, staring at me, in my office I have just so much willpower.

I am preparing for what I know is coming.  I ordered a Crossrope package and some gym flooring from Home Depot.  Home Depot kills me.  They have the flooring in stock, albeit not in my local store, and they project it will take two and half weeks to deliver it.  Go figure.

Temperatures continue to drop, and it has been windy on and off.  I managed to get in two conditioning workouts but only one day at the gym.  That day was important.  I got up Friday morning to go and quickly made a bunch of excuses.  I’m tired, it’s too cold, the wind makes things worse, blah blah blah.  I didn’t go.

Friday night I was driving home from work regretting my excuses.  It’s been a long week and I was ready for the weekend to start.  But I couldn’t get over skipping yet another day at the gym.  I got home, lit Chanukah candles with the family, exchanged some gifts, and went to the gym.  More accurately, I went to all the equipment my gym has set up outside.

When I arrived, it was in the mid-40s, I was tired, and starting to wonder why I was there.  But I got to it.  Doing pullups, I was pissed.  The bar was really cold, and my hands were getting stiff between sets.  That’s when it hit me.  It sucks. I hate my governor.  This is unnecessary.  I have no control over this and I’m ready to punch someone.  And none of that matters.

I was working out, getting it done.  So was everyone else there.  No one was complaining.  

My gym, per government edict, has a new you-have-to-wear-a-mask-even-outside-because-we-have-no-choice policy.  Most of the people at the gym wore one but some didn’t.  I lasted less than two minutes on the elliptical before I had to take mine off.  I just couldn’t get enough oxygen.  No one said a word and I got it done.

More or less the same things happened while working out.  I tried the mask, couldn’t get enough oxygen, and took it off.  No one said a word.  And I realized, I just need to get it done.  The one thing I can control is my attitude.  I can decide to get up early, go to the gym, and get it done.  It isn’t ideal, I still hate my governor, and I’ll be damned if I let him live in my head.  It’s my life and I’m taking control of it.

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The first week of Gavin Newsom’s stay at home order is over.  I’m sure in two more weeks he is going to lift the order.

Meanwhile, some businesses can’t wait any longer.  They will go bankrupt if they close yet again.  So, they are defying the governor’s order.  This appears to be economic necessity rather than a thirst for freedom, but I’ll take what I can get. I also appreciate the use of government approved tactics against the government.

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