AMST 14

by | Feb 4, 2025 | In Memoriam, Military | 47 comments

Another day at the office…

“Buddy, you flew that one like Steve McQueen.”

Clark ‘Swab’ Cox wasn’t a man of many words – laconic might as well have been made just for him – so it caught me off guard and I laughed. I had just finished my second landing to the ship and now it was Clark’s turn. I’d had one of those passes around the pattern that if you fly enough, you eventually get: clean and pristine, where you hit every number right on airspeed and altitude, on glideslope and heading, and then you cap it off by just touching the skids down without so much as a bump or scrape. Flying is like golf in that regard: most of it you do well enough, but you keep coming back for the once a flight that goes the way you hoped it would.

We were taking turns whipping around the ship’s landing pattern 2 times each in order to get in as many landings as we could in 30 minutes. Because it was her maiden voyage, the USS Kearsarge’s Air Boss had asked our squadron if we could help them make sure they got the requisite number of landings for some Navy qualification. We were more than happy to oblige by grabbing extra “bounces” whenever we could. I was the Cobra schedule-writer at the time, and circumstances allowed me to finagle Clark and I for an early flight together on a cloudless, pristine day in the Adriatic Sea… Summer, 1995.

This was a bit of a treat for us, not just unique because we were off the coast of Yugoslavia as it was collasing in real time. We didn’t typically fly in the same aircraft – i.e. together – however, we’d been flying “together,” as the two junior guys in a section of Cobras, for most of the last two years together… and even before that.

Clark and I checked into the training squadron, HMT-303, within 1 day of each other and found out we were going to the same Fleet squadron (HML/A-269) together. As a consequence, we had been paired together, through training and the Fleet, almost every day. We’d been studying and flight-planning together, rehearsing drills and radio calls, and hanging out with other families in our spare time virtually non-stop. We were both married with kids and became fast friends with his lovely bride Renee and their boys. As I noted in AMST 4, it was Clark flying the aircraft with the AIM-9M Sidewinder missile while I was carrying and dropping the flares. We did our first, live TOW- missile shoots together, went to 29 Palms and fired Hellfires as a section, and the day I crashed was one of the few times Clark wasn’t on my wing or I on his for a flight. Ultimately, we were the two junior Cobra pilots on this deployment… and so we were paired with the two senior Cobra pilots.

So it was a rare treat for the two of us to get to hang out on a VFR, not-a-cloud-in-the-damn-sky day to fly together. All that was missing for a perfect day of Manly Man Camaraderie was beer at the end of the flight. U.S. ships remain “dry” counties while afloat, unlike their British counterparts, with one caveat: if you’re at sea for more than 60 days, Navy Regs allow for 2 beers per man, but no swapping, stockpiling, or selling tickets is allowed. So, Clark and I did get to enjoy that beer eventually on this deployment.

That’s the memory I keep of Clark…

One of our 4 x AH-1W from HML/A-269 on deployment with HMM-263 Mediterranean Sea, July 10, 1995

Last Time We Flew Together

In AMST-13, I recounted my part in and my own understanding of the fatal mishap that killed 14 people during exercise “Purple Star” in May 1996. I was a member of that Aircraft Mishap Board when I learned I had been selected for the Funded Legal Education Program: if I accepted, I would leave flying – forever – and in August 1996 begin law school. I would still be a Marine officer, a junior Captain back then, and be paid while attending law school, but I would have to intern during the summers at a major installation. Upon graduation, I would also have to pass the Bar examination in some state, and then return to the Fleet as a judge advocate, a 4402 – “Basic Lawyer” vice 7565 “AH-1W Pilot.”

In the meantime, during my last three months, I spent almost exclusively testing aircraft. Clark, and Mike Wood, and other members of my cohort continued on to more training, more shoots, so that they could become the senior pilots with the experience and qualifications sufficient to be leaders the next deployment, which was just a year away. We didn’t fly much together any more, but I would be out testing in the day, much as I had been doing at WTI, so that they could come in and have birds to fly at night.

During this time, we also welcomed another baby girl into the world. We were kinda forced to induce early because we knew we had orders for early August to move north for law school, and we wanted both mama and baby to have some time to recover before we got on the road.

Clark eventually got the itch to become a post-Maintenance Functional Check pilot (‘FCP,’ for short) and at that time, it happened that I was one of the more experienced testers, as well as being the Quality Assurance officer for Maintenance. So I got to put Clark through the FCP syllabus, try to convey as much as I could about how to test an aircraft, tricks of the trade for getting Whiskey Cobras “up,” and make sure he was ready to start signing aircraft off as “Safe for Flight.” It was a great way to end my career as an aviator.

I came back into New River on my last flight from the Water Tower 5 miles south of the field, from a test hop with a mechanic in the front seat. He asked me about and I remember being content – and happy to be alive. And not 20 seconds later, later someone on downwind missed a radio call from Tower, mistook my clearance for theirs, and cut in front of me in the pattern. I had seen it happening and both slowed and hooked right to create space for the other aircraft before Tower could call with a raised voice, trying to intervene: “Four-Two, Tower COME RIGHT behind-”

“This GunRunner 42, Tower, I see him and I’m sliding in behind.”

“Everyone just take it easy,” I said over the ICS to the Corporal in the front seat, who laughed.

“DAMN, SIR! It’s like they’s tryna kill you on your last flight!”

“Not today, stud warrior. Not today.”


First year of law school was a pain in the ass. Interestingly, the firehose of information I had learned to consume in flight school – and the habits of discipline that accompanied – made law school much easier than it otherwise would have been. Fatherhood with 3 daughters did provide its challenges. During the summers, I interned as a military prosecutor at Camp Lejeune, right across the New River from my old squadron, and even managed to go by the squadron and get a flight in the back of a Huey to take some pictures of a house for an important search and seizure case. Very few of my old mates were around when I went by the squadron: Mike and Clark were already chopped down the road to HMM-263 again for their upcoming Med Float – what would have been my second with them – so I said a few hellos, but… Life Goes On in a gun-squadron.

USS Kearsarge (LHD-3) on her maiden LF6F cruise, July 1995

I got the call from Mike Wood late at night – go figure – a day after I had returned back home from Camp Lejeune to begin law school in a week. I knew instantly; there was no dodging it this time.

“Hey, Barney, it’s Woodman.” The tone of his voice told me everything I needed to know.

“Is it Clark?” I asked, already knowing the answer. There was a brief pause.

“Yeah. Off the back of the boat. Low-light NVG’s coming back in for a recovery. Hairball was lead and they just never checked back in after switching up from approach to Tower.” Pause. “Nothing definitive yet… I… I thought you should know.” (Mike “Hairball” Harris had been my wingman the day I crashed).

“Thanks, Mike. I’ll- I’ll… does Renee know yet?”

“Yeah. Working through it now.”

There wasn’t much more to say. We talked about flying, and about Clark’s co-pilot, a guy we had given his callsign, Jerrell “Cletus” Boggan. We were actually trying to nickname him after the character in “Dukes of Hazzard” who had the big truck that always helped the Duke Brothers out of trouble – “Cooter” – in part because of the duel rear-wheel truck Boggan drove, and he was from Oklahoma, but we were shitfaced and mis-named him “Cletus,” which was actually the name of the sheriff’s cousin in the TV show. But whatever, it stuck regardless. Jerry took it like a champ.

So Mike and I talked about possible causes, and two of the nicest guys we’d ever known, until the conversation faded.

A Cobra breaks across the bow to enter the landing pattern. We count down from 3, then follow in trace, typically landing on the spot behind.

Causes

In one of those strange coincidences that I no longer believe in, a few years later I got to know a Marine officer who was on that same deployment and was privy to the Aircraft Mishap Board for Clark. He explained what the Board had found, but the truth is I don’t even remember anymore. I don’t even remember if there was a definitive cause, and it doesn’t matter. The best answer of all might be as simple as what an astute reader might have gleaned from this entire series: flying military helicopters generally is a dangerous business. Doing it off of ships at night and on night vision goggles may be routine, but it routinely results in dead troops and pilots. As I discussed in AMST 8, Clark and Mike had watched Jim “Jinx” Jenkins and myself come within feet, and moments, of smashing into the water in a perfectly good helicopter.

Every year, no matter what, no matter what procedures are changed and how many safety stand-downs are held, no matter how many faux-surprised, angry and sad generals posture to the Media, we just keep training and flying these missions and people die – world without end, Amen. The margins are just that tight and human beings and mechanical failures happen, even to the most conscientious pilots.

After my last flight, I’d felt relief. Gratitude that I was still alive. I understood then why Tom “Q-Ball” Stone didn’t care about filming the AIM-9 shoot and wanted to get back. When I left for law school, my mind tricked me into thinking that I had escaped that, but Clark’s death was a sharp reminder that as long as I had friends in naval aviation, I would always have a chance of getting the phone call.

So, this time of year, every year, I raise a glass to Clark “Swab” Cox and Jerry “Cletus” Boggan – they were Good Men and True. I say a prayer for their families, and some thanks that I was blessed enough to have served alongside them.

View of a landing aboard ship from the front seat through a scratchy canopy glass at dusk, with an inexpensive camera.

About The Author

Ozymandias

Ozymandias

Born poor, but raised well. Marine, helo pilot, judge advocate, lawyer, tech startup guy... wannabe writer. Lucky in love, laughing 'til the end.

47 Comments

  1. SarumanTheGreat

    The closest thing I’ve had to your dreaded phone calls happened a couple of years ago on New Year’s day, when I got a phone call that a friend of mine who I had worked with for decades had died. One of the few people I considered friends, although we’d had our differences. He had moved to West Virginia after his retirement a couple of years earlier and had only had irregular contact, but it was quite a shock. To this day I can still hear his uproarious laugh.

  2. trshmnstr

    Thank you Ozy!

  3. kinnath

    Thank you for this series.

  4. juris imprudent

    Flying is like golf in that…

    If golf was played on courses laced with landmines and other booby-traps.

    I see the real world that Kratman depicts in his fiction, but of course his is quite a bit more sanitized.

  5. slumbrew

    Thank you for this, Ozzy. The pain of loss is evident after all these years.

  6. Sensei

    I too really appreciate this series. Thanks.

  7. SarumanTheGreat

    Yes, thank you for sharing these stories, no matter how sad or bitter. Makes one appreciate life and what one has, that people like you and your friend put yourself in harms way to keep the rest of us safe.

  8. Fourscore

    Thanks Ozy. I’m still in contact with a few of my old buds from VN, circa ’67. Some have left us, a couple of my best friends are in serious decline. We were as close as brothers, guys you could always depend on.

    The ’71 vacation was totally different, everyone worked in different places, different jobs. I had 3 hooch mates that I saw some mornings/evenings or at mealtimes but we had nothing to share. My VN counterparts were my daytime friends.

  9. Mojeaux

    I’m doing podiatry tonight. 😴 I cannot imagine a more boring job, medical or otherwise.

    • Fourscore

      For sure, Moj, you got a handful with that.

      • rhywun

        I’m sure it keeps her on her toes.

      • trshmnstr

        Just remember, her sisters are the heels.

      • Mojeaux

        SWIIIIIISSSSSS!!!!

      • Yusef drives a Kia

        Well she is toeing the line

      • ZWAK, doktor of BRAIN SCIENCE!

        Swiss? Why do you want toe cheese?

      • JaimeRoberto (carnitas/spicy salsa)

        Would you say toes are your jam?

  10. Spudalicious

    Thank you, Ozy. This has been a excellent series and it is appreciated.

      • Sean

        Eh, barely, for a work day. 😁

    • Gender Traitor

      Good morning, Sean, Teh Hype, Stinky, ChipP, and homey!

      • UnCivilServant

        Morning.

        I overslept and woke up after I was supposed to have left the house.

        Still made it to the office just in time though.

      • Gender Traitor

        Good thing you have so much extra time built in to your schedule!

      • UnCivilServant

        I leave an hour before I start work. If I leave on schedule, I don’t get bogged down in traffic and arrive more than a half hour before work starts. Each minute I am behind in getting out the door increases the amount of traffic and the duration of the commute. Being in the office a half hour before I start work isn’t a problem, since I can go through a leasurely early morning browse of the internet before I start into checking my email. Arriving just in time is more stressful.

    • Stinky Wizzleteats

      “For too long, the partisan Department of Justice has been weaponized against me (Trump, who else?) and other Republicans – Not anymore.”

      All well and good but it shouldn’t be weaponized against anyone and I hope they realize that and that neutrality will win out over politics. Without structural changes that must include safeguards against partisanship it’ll just be turned around again when the Dems get back into office. Revenge is tempting but a Department of Justice that cyclically goes after rivals of the political party that’s not in power isn’t a way to run a country.

      • R C Dean

        “All well and good but it shouldn’t be weaponized against anyone and I hope they realize that and that neutrality will win out over politics.”

        Unfortunately, the cultural/social proscription against a weaponized bureaucracy is gone. I don’t know how to get it back.

        Unfortunately, I think it’s pretty clear that massive crimes have been committed by Dems/leftists. It’s a dilemma – let them walk to maintain a “neutral” DOJ? Is that even a neutral DOJ, and what kind of incentive does that create anyway? Or prosecute and set off another cycle of eye-for-an-eye?

      • Ted S.

        Vote for these reforms to depoliticize DOJ, or it might get used against you the same way you used it against us?

    • Chipping Pioneer

      Look, if you want to make an omelette, you’ve gotta steal a truckload of eggs.

      • rhywun

        you’ve gotta steal a truckload of eggs

        Or be a millionaire.

    • Stinky Wizzleteats

      Was Frank Reynolds, a notable shady character about town and a big egg guy, involved?

    • Grumbletarian

      The heist was the result of a well-laid plan, no doubt.

      • UnCivilServant

        Don’t be silly, the scheme was obviously hatched on the spur of the moment.

      • Grumbletarian

        Maybe so. Either way, the authorities will have a hard time cracking this case.

    • Gender Traitor

      So….they poached them?

      • UnCivilServant

        I’m sure when they’re caught, the thieves will prove to be hard-boiled criminals.

      • R C Dean

        While I am no opponent of the death penalty, I don’t think they should fry for this.

  11. Tres Cool

    suh’ fam
    whats goody

  12. robodruid

    Thank you Ozzie.
    For everything.